I received this picture today and it really hit my about FAITH. As I have walked the road of being a Christ Follower there have been many places in my life where we (God and I but mostly me) have come to this place where it seems the stairs ended. This is that place typically where I have gotten mad at God, questioned God, prayed harder, told everyone I knew; lots of murmuring and complaining would probably summarize my behavior and attitude. But the truth is God brings us all to places where we have step out in FAITH. We step out into what seems like nowhere land but this is the very place that God can really do something with us. God prepares us for all these lessons, sometimes we choose to take them and sometimes we choose to run back down the stairs to our presumed safety and comfort.
Please realize however that God begins to eliminate the old safety and comfort places as He drives us to Higher ground with Him. They will not work anymore. You can figure this out quickly or slowly, totally up to you.
I remember in early recovery something that was going on in my life. It is funny as I write about it because it was a huge deal at the time (as most drama is) but today I can’t remember the topic of the drama at all. But what I do remember out of the incident was the lesson. As I was whining, murmuring and complaining my mentor looked at me and said “you can go through it now or you can go through it later but if you are going to stay sober you are going to go through it”. The lesson is true for being a Christ Follower if you are truly going to follow Him you are going to come to those places where you have to “step out in faith”. Where you feel like God has told you to do something but it absolutely scares the heebie jeebies out of you. It may not seem logical to your flesh, it may be an emotionally scary thing for you and your head has a thousand reasons why not but in order for God to take you to that next place you are going to have to step out into darkness and trust that He has you.
I have stepped out a thousand times after all these years and it is easier in some cases but in some it is still just as scary as it was on day one. God is always stretching you to get less of you and more of Him. The lessons are always difficult. The only difference today is I have experience that says He has my back. Or as His word says “He is always working for my good”. So as I am standing at that spot I can tell myself He hasn’t dropped me on my head yet. It has seemed like it a couple times but He has always taken my hand and walked with me to a better place.
I will put a disclaimer on this writing, I had/have a mentor. I choose to walk with a fellow believer for guidance, education, encouragement and to keep me from being really stupid! Step out in Faith as the Lord has you and is working for you not against you.
Blessings ~ Tammy
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I really needed that! This is where I am at, and it is true it is not easy. I ran back down the stairs yesterday..but is time now to have faith and No He has not dropped me on my head yet; although it may take that to get through to me..hopefully not!!!
I’m onto day two. again. Yesterday was good at first, but then partner and I had a disagreement during the night, I’m so depressed now, I know I don’t want any weed, I really don’t, but wish that I could get out of my head, I can’t shut it up, it hurts.