Made a searching and fearless moral inventory…… Why does everyone hate this part? Taking a direct look at what is free floating in your heart and your head. Most of us have no idea how many things are free floating in our heads. The vows we made because some snippy little middle school girl said something hateful that hurt our heart. Or a survival lie is created in us like “we are not good enough, no one cares about us, etc.” because a parent makes a bad judgement or has priorities that are not necessarily us. I have done many a fourth step the Alcoholics Anonymous way and have learned a lot about what I think and feel about myself and others. Many incorrect expectations and fears have been revealed in the process. Then I found the Genesis Process and the Forgiveness Worksheet which brought new revelation to the things that were still lingering. We all have stuff! This is not a pity party or parent bashing event. We live in a fallen world, people do things, it is life. The deal is I want to walk in love! I work with people everyday that want to walk in love and I find ways to facilitate that process. If things that have happened in the past are blocking you from walking in love today you need to investigate them. Many times I find people blocked from walking in love because of something that happened in the past that they made a personal judgement, created a vow or survival lie. We can be walking around thinking that people owe us something. The adult knows we are not going to get it, but the child within is still pouting and demanding it on some level. Investigating what is free floating in your head and your heart is the key.
I challenged one of my groups with this very exercise the other night and they were amazed. They worked on the process for 30 minutes and the things that were revealed was absolutely amazing. God in His usual style showed up and put light on things that members of the group didnt’ even realize were floating around in their head. The fear, the expectations, the lies! These things drive addictions, compulsions, anxiety, depression, etc.
Do you want to walk in freedom? It requires work. You have to get out your pen and paper and begin to see what is going on inside your heart and head. Trust God to reveal the hurts, hang ups and habits that will allow you to walk free!
Blessings ~ Tammy
