More Than The 12 Steps
I woke up this morning thinking about the steps. I love the steps of Alcoholics Anonymous they are the process that began to reveal what was going on in the trashcan of my soul. But what do you do after you have worked the steps and worked the steps? I needed more. I needed different. It made me think of the line on page 164 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, “We realize we know only a little, God will constantly disclose more to you and to us.” I am grateful that God has continued to reveal more to me. That He has continued to bring people into my life that I could learn from. I am grateful for the different processes that He has brought to me so that I could relinquish those hurts that caused me to want to run and hide in a bottle of booze or pills in the first place.
If you are in recovery and you have worked the steps so you could work the steps but feel you are still not “getting it” know that you are not alone. I am talking about the person that gives up alcohol/drugs but food kicks their rear or anger or control. You know those underlying issues that don’t seem to be budging. If you have done talk therapy and more talk therapy for no real resolve, there is more!
When I found the Genesis Process it made so much sense to me. My emotional injuries were experiences so talking about them didn’t change the experience. I could rationalize them from an adult perspective but that did not make restitution with the child that was injured. I do belong to the suck it up and go group but there came a place in life where I nowhere else to suck it up to. My adrenals were shot, I had been using caffeine, sugar and anger to try to stay alive, get energy and keep all those hurts at bay. But God revealed more. It is almost like something being unwound inside my body. It is like getting an emotional do over.
If you are hurting today and you need a ray of hope I just want you to know you can walk in freedom. You do not have to be plagued with your hurts, habits and hang ups. God has more for you. It doesn’t mean that you are doing it wrong or not enough it just means that it has not come in the right process for you personally yet.
I will write a disclaimer. You have to be physically sober before you can do the emotional work. I have tried to work with people thinking that if I did the emotional work they would be able to do the other but it doesn’t seem to work that way. I still believe Alcoholics Anonymous is the best way to get sober. They do it better than anyone I know. I also would not be sitting where I am today had it not been for the members of that fellowship that unselfishly loved me until I could love myself!
Blessings today as I walk in gratitude~
Tammy
